The Search

The Search - NF
[Intro]
Hey Nate how's life? I don't know it's all right
I've been dealing with some things like every human being and
Really didn't sleep much last night
I'm sorry that's fine
I just think I need a little me time I just think I need a little free time
Little break from the shows and the bus rides yeah
Last year I had a breakdown thoughts telling me I'm lost getting too loud
Had to see a therapist then I found out something funny's going on up in my house
Yeah I started thinking maybe I should move out you know pack my cart take a new route
Clean up my yard get the noose out hang up my heart let it air out

[Verse 1]
I've been searching what does that mean Nate? I've been learning
Grabbing my keepsakes leaving my burdens well I brought a few with me I'm not perfect
Looking at the view like this concerns me picking up the cues right? I'm quite nervous
Hate it when I lose sight life gets blurry and things might hurt me
It's probably gonna be a long journey but hey
It's worth it though cold world out there kids grab your coats
It's been a minute I know now I'm back to roam looking for the antidote to crack the code
Pretty vivid I admit it I'm in classic mode don't need pity given to me but I can't condone
Talking down to me I'ma have to crack your nose for cracking jokes
I'm looking for the map to hope you seen it?

[Build]
Been making a whole lot of changes wrote a song about that you should play it
I get scared when I walk on these stages I look at the crowd and see so many faces yeah
That's when I start to get anxious that's when my thoughts can be dangerous
That's when I put on my makeup and drown in self-hatred
Forget what I'm saying and where'd the beat go?

[Drop]
Oh ain't that something? Drums came in you ain't see that coming
Hands on my head can't tell me nothing got a taste of the fame had to pump my stomach
Throw it back up like I don't want it wipe my face clean off my vomit
OCD tryin' to push my buttons I said don't touch it now y'all done it
I can be critical never typical

[Chorus]
Intricate with every syllable I'm a criminal
Intimate but never political pretty visual
Even if you hate it I'll make it feel like you're in it though
You call me what you wanna but never call me forgettable
Leave you deep in thought I could never swim in the kiddie pool
Way that I been thinking is cinematic it's beautiful
Man I don't know if I'm making movies or music videos

[Verse 2]
Yeah the sales can rise doesn't mean much though when your health declines
See we've all got something that we trapped inside
That we try to suffocate you know hoping it dies
Try to hold it underwater but it always survives
Then it comes up out of nowhere like an evil surprise
Then it hovers over you to tell you millions of lies
You don't relate to that? Must not be as crazy as I am
The point I'm making is the mind is a powerful place
And what you feed it can affect you in a powerful way
It's pretty cool right? Yeah but it's not always safe
Just hang with me this'll only take a moment okay?
Just think about it for a second if you look at your face
Every day when you get up and think you'll never be great
You'll never be great not because you're not but the hate
Will always find a way to cut you up and murder your faith woo

[Chorus]
I've been developing take a look at the benefits
Nothing to meddle with I can never be delicate
Am I even relevant? That depends how you measure it
Take a measurement then bag it up and give me the evidence
Pretty evident dependable can never be tentative
I'm a gentleman depending on if I think you're genuine
Pretty elegant but not afraid to tell you to get a grip
Proper etiquette I keep it to myself when I celebrate ah

[Verse 3]
It's that time again better grab your balloons and invite your friends
Seat belts back on yeah strap 'em in look at me everybody I'm smiling big
On a road right now that I can't predict tell me tone that down but I can't resist
Y'all know that sound better raise your fist the search begins I'm back so enjoy the trip huh

[Outro]